And It Begins

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My son starts kindergarten today. I could probably just leave it at that and many of you would know exactly what I’m thinking and feeling.

I didn’t cry on the first day of preschool. I was ready for the break.

I didn’t even cry the following preschool year when his sister joined him. I rejoiced for the alone time.

Today, I feel like I’m setting him free into the wild. It’s where he belongs but still it’s hard. I’m excited for what he’s going to learn and discover but I know that he’s going to come home different. What he learns from Mommy, Daddy and Google aren’t going to be enough anymore.

As long as he still calls a calculator a copulator and asks for Hooshey’s Kisses for dessert, he’ll be my baby boy a little longer.

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38 Comments on “And It Begins

  1. Awhile back, I was in a therapy session, and I was telling the therapist about this picture my 1st grader made that I loved so much that I created a short story based on it. Then I broke down in tears and said that the picture makes me sad, because it reminds me of the fact that my children are getting older, and I am missing it because I feel like crap all the time.
    A year and a half later, after more therapy and medication, I am in a much better place. I still struggle sometimes – I especially hate calendars or signs that remind me of dates, because I dislike things that remind me of the passage of time – but whenever I struggle, I try to remember to tell myself, “There is nothing else right now. There is only this.” It helps remind me to stop overthinking things and enjoy the moments as they come.
    Many blessings on you and your kiddos!

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    • Living in the moment was always a struggle of mine too. For me, having kids has actually helped me with that because they’re so immediate. They don’t hold onto the past the way adult do and they can’t conceive of the future the way we do. They’re amazing teachers. Thank you for your thoughts and blessings to you too!

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  2. Even now, after all these years I remember what that day felt like. So hard. So necessary. So…everything.

    Sherry

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  3. Awe, Karen! My little guy will start kinder in Sept. so I know exactly what you’re feeling! Something about those little boys. Hope his first day was a success and you got lots of cuddles at the end of the day!

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    • Thank you! He did great but he said the day was too long. He has one little girl in his class that he knows, so that made me feel better. Good luck with your little guy!

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      • Oh good! I think Zac is going to think the same thing about the longer days! We’re off to buy school supplies today! Have a great weekend😊

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  4. He’s a cutie patootie. Our youngest started JK this year and will be in SK this September. I can’t believe how quickly they grow…and I know in our hearts they will always be that little kid with the backpack that’s almost bigger than them, no matter how old they get 🙂

    thanks Karen for this – just adorable 🙂

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  5. I am getting teary for you. And aren’t those “-isms” the best? Every time my kids say something wrong, I smile inside because it means there is still some “little” inside there. I went through this whole Kindergarten thing last year with my son and it hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. But here’s the thing…he is actually doing another year of Kindergarten THIS year, due to him being on the young side. So I am wondering if it will be hard again, or if somehow repeating Kindergarten will trick me into thinking he isn’t really growing up, even though he is still a year old than before.

    I hope he has a wonderful, wonderful year. What an adorable kid he is!

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    • Aw, thanks! I can’t speak for doing kindergarten twice but it wasn’t as to hard to send my son to preschool the second year. I think what’s going to be really hard is when my daughter goes to kindergarten next year. I think it’ll finally sink in that my kids are growing up and I won’t be having any more babies!

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  6. This is so exciting! And he is so adorable. Oh and I feel ya! I will be in the same boat come September! Hang in Karen, he will be OK! 😂 (oh, I have to keep reaping that!) Hugs.

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  7. Haha, copulator! Oh Karen, he’s adorable. My youngest finished kindergarten in spring and LOVED it. It’s an exciting year, still with lots of playtime and sweetness from the teachers. So excited for you guys.

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  8. I have been thinking about you all day and reliving my own little experience with my babe who is a college junior and heading to nursing school. I just enrolled my youngest for his freshman year in high school. Yep, a blink of an eye.
    Enough about me…I’m completely swallowed up in his cuteness. The smile, the back pack…the copulator. Is that little sis’ piggy tails reflected in the window? I can’t wait to hear how his first day went!!!
    Love and hugs to you, mama 🙂

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    • Yes, those are her pigtails! Mommy cried, daddy cried and sister cried because she thought he was getting too much attention. I can’t even imagine sending them off to high school and college! We just picked Cash up and he gave me a huge hug and said, “I missed you so much.” Heart melted.

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  9. aaahhhh – so cute 🙂 ….. mine are that bit older and my favourite phrase is now, “Mummy, did you know…” because often, I don’t. and when they teach you stuff that is pretty amazing too! big hugs for you! xx

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  10. When my 10 year old started school I cried like a baby, but I held back until I got outta the school. And I doubt it will be any different when my 4 and 2 year olds start, so I know exactly what you’re going through. Hugs

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  11. 19 years ago, I out my 4 year old on the bus to kindergarten. I then got in my car went to the school and watched him get off. He is now 23. Every now and then, when he is tired, he calls me Mama instead of Mom.
    Enjoy every minute, it goes so fast.

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